Desperately Seeking Sleep

So when the twins were born, they were a little small and a little early and they slept A LOT.  I was thinking this motherhood thing was pretty easy.  As they got a little bit bigger, they stayed awake a little longer and we got to play!  Such fun.  At about two and a half months of age they were sleeping eight to ten straight hours at night!  Ah, the good old days.  Now, a little over four months old, I'm lucky if I get four hours at a time.  And this time around the frequent wake up calls are hitting me harder.  Perhaps I was still on a new baby high when they were newborns, waking every three hours, but now it's kicking my ass.  It doesn't help that this past week was my first week back to work full-time.

It's odd to me how they are waking up so much now.  I imagine they could be more hungry but they don't guzzle down their formula any faster and don't take full servings each time they wake up.  We have our four month checkup next week so I hope I can get some answers and the green light to start rice cereal.  

Times like this - when I am utterly exhausted - I wonder how on earth I am doing this.  The truth is without the help of my friends and my mom, I wouldn't be.  I feel like I'm barely functioning as a mother and imagine it getting worse as they get bigger.  I'm weepy and snappish, have dark(er than usual) circles under my eyes and my hair is still falling out since their births nineteen weeks ago.  

Then Sweet Potato smiles his crooked smile at me and the Dynamo squeals with delight.   And I'm not tired anymore.  And the doubts are buried.  For awhile.

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One year ago I found out I was officially pregnant with a beta of 422 at 14dpiui!  (You can read about it here.)

Who would have thought a year later I would have this....

Trying out the new highchairs!

  

"Dude, I was here first."

  

The Dynamo lovin' the Bumbo.

  

Sweet Potato asleep at the wheel.

  
 As exhausted as I am, I wouldn't change a thing.  :)