Saturday, January 8, 2011

Desperately Seeking Sleep

So when the twins were born, they were a little small and a little early and they slept A LOT.  I was thinking this motherhood thing was pretty easy.  As they got a little bit bigger, they stayed awake a little longer and we got to play!  Such fun.  At about two and a half months of age they were sleeping eight to ten straight hours at night!  Ah, the good old days.  Now, a little over four months old, I'm lucky if I get four hours at a time.  And this time around the frequent wake up calls are hitting me harder.  Perhaps I was still on a new baby high when they were newborns, waking every three hours, but now it's kicking my ass.  It doesn't help that this past week was my first week back to work full-time.

It's odd to me how they are waking up so much now.  I imagine they could be more hungry but they don't guzzle down their formula any faster and don't take full servings each time they wake up.  We have our four month checkup next week so I hope I can get some answers and the green light to start rice cereal.  

Times like this - when I am utterly exhausted - I wonder how on earth I am doing this.  The truth is without the help of my friends and my mom, I wouldn't be.  I feel like I'm barely functioning as a mother and imagine it getting worse as they get bigger.  I'm weepy and snappish, have dark(er than usual) circles under my eyes and my hair is still falling out since their births nineteen weeks ago.  

Then Sweet Potato smiles his crooked smile at me and the Dynamo squeals with delight.   And I'm not tired anymore.  And the doubts are buried.  For awhile.

* * * * *

One year ago I found out I was officially pregnant with a beta of 422 at 14dpiui!  (You can read about it here.)

Who would have thought a year later I would have this....

Trying out the new highchairs!

"Dude, I was here first."

The Dynamo lovin' the Bumbo.

Sweet Potato asleep at the wheel.
 As exhausted as I am, I wouldn't change a thing.  :)


  1. Hang in there! Sleep gets better. Then it sucks. Then it gets better...

    O stopped sleeping long glorious stretches around that time too. They might be reacting to the changes in your schedule because of going back to work, gearing up for a growth spurt, or maybe they are working on rolling over or some other new trick.

    I hope you get some sleep soon!
    I always get so excited when I see an update from you :)

  2. Love those pictures :) Crazy to think where you are in a year!
    Hoping they give mommy a break and sleep a little more at a stretch!

  3. Going back to work SUCKS. I didn't have to do it until LG was 7 months and even then it was one of our roughest times. But I would have given *anything* to have a baby who slept 4 hrs at a stretch (she didn't go more than 2 hrs until 2 years. I'm not kidding). I think you might be on to something about the new mother hormones; I swear sleep dep is harder with older babies/kids than younger ones. Maybe I'm making this up, or maybe I really remember it, but I think it actually has something to do with prolactin, which you're not making in large quantities if you are formula feeding...

    Anyway, I wish you well. It DOES get easier.

  4. Hope you get some soon. Sleep that is. Good though that you have people to help out some.
    I love that last picture.

  5. Yeah, Henry has stopped sleeping well, and I am suffering - and I only have the one & am not trying to be functional at work the next day. I think you're doing great.

    And agree about the newborn-bliss hormones. When H first came home and we were eating every 2 hours - for an hour at a time - I was very blissed/zen/ok with that. Now? I needs me my sleep! (or at least more than 2 hours at a time!)

    Wishing you well & wanting to say those are some seriously cute kids you've got there!

  6. It is so great to get an update! Crazy what change can come in a year. So sorry about the sleep. I admire you so much -- you are doing a great job. Your boys are so cute and look like such happy babies!

  7. Your boys are so cute! I'm sorry they aren't cooperating with the sleeping bit, but at least they're adorable. :)

  8. So sorry they aren't sleeping. I don't know how working moms do it all! But you are even a single working mom!!!! My hat is off to you. You are amazing. And your boys are so adorable. I hope it gets better soon.

  9. I have no idea how two parents do it with one child, much less one parent with two children! You have my utmost respect!


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