Beta results are in and I am officially pregnant! (Yes, I said the p-word.) There really wasn't a doubt in my mind that I wouldn't have a positive result today with this lineup of pee sticks -
Here I am, fourth pregnancy in less than a year, and suffering from mixed emotions. I could talk again about my fears. It's not like they aren't still there. I could play it safe like last time, refusing to say the p-word too early. But did doing that make it hurt any less when I lost that baby? Nope. So really what's the point in suppressing my joy and trying to convince myself that it's just another Saturday? I think I will embrace this pregnancy and continue with the new year, new attitude.
I know there are no guarantees and my dreams could be shattered again tomorrow. I'm not saying I won't be petrified for the next betas to come and, if I make it that far, future ultrasounds. I will be. I will also try to remember how I am feeling at this very moment: excited. And blissful.
Today's beta at 14dpIUI = 422! (not a typo)