Here I am, fourth pregnancy in less than a year, and suffering from mixed emotions. I could talk again about my fears. It's not like they aren't still there. I could play it safe like last time, refusing to say the p-word too early. But did doing that make it hurt any less when I lost that baby? Nope. So really what's the point in suppressing my joy and trying to convince myself that it's just another Saturday? I think I will embrace this pregnancy and continue with the new year, new attitude.
I know there are no guarantees and my dreams could be shattered again tomorrow. I'm not saying I won't be petrified for the next betas to come and, if I make it that far, future ultrasounds. I will be. I will also try to remember how I am feeling at this very moment: excited. And blissful.
Today's beta at 14dpIUI = 422! (not a typo)
heheheh. Yeah, that photo looks mighty familiar. Looking forward to the next 8 months or so - hoping they're good ones for both of us!
ReplyDeleteYou are totally right! Saying your pregnant won't make the outcome good or bad. Your beta is great!! I have decided to be more positive about our upcoming cycle. Believing that it will work wont jinx it. It will just make me feel better during the whole process. And being positive sure beats being negative any day of the week!
ReplyDeleteYAY! Doing the happy dance for you!
ReplyDeleteAll we have is today anyway. I hope you enjoy this every step of the way.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!!! A mighty fine Beta and wonderful pee stick progression. Wishing you All the best,
ReplyDeletewarmly,
Kate
Holy shit, that's a beta! If I were a betting woman, I'd say there are at least two in there...
ReplyDeleteOh, honey, I'm just thrilled for you.
yippee!!! What a great start to a new year.
ReplyDeleteOMG!! awesome sticks and awesome beta......I am grinning right now :)
ReplyDeleteBliss indeed! Beautiful number, my dear!
ReplyDeleteWow! Loving that beta. I hope this is a very sticky one that hangs around for the full 40. Or close to it anyways.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was first in the major fretting / being happy stage a friend of mine said you can worry or you can be happy, and it seemed so revolutionary to me. You can and will worry, but you can put that aside for now, and just be happy. I am so happy for you. So, so happy. :)
ReplyDeleteWhat a great number!!! I think you have a wonderful attitude. Be happy; we're all happy with you :)
ReplyDeleteWoo hoo!! Love it love it love it!!
ReplyDeleteYAY!!! Awesome beta and an awesome way to start out the new year!!! I'm so happy for you!!!
ReplyDeleteBack to say: That bean is an overachiever!!! Check out betabase.info
ReplyDeleteYou are definitely pregnant. And what an amazing beta!
ReplyDeleteAw, congratulations! Sending all kinds of sticky vibes your way!
ReplyDeleteI think of pregnant as kind of a 'safe' word. Safer than 'expecting'. Safer than "I'm having a baby!" So use it to your heart's content because you ARE. Hopefully you are all the other things too. It sure looks like it with a number like that! Congratulations on positively flying over these early hurdles. You're making it look easy ;)
ReplyDeleteYES!! I love it all...the pee sticks...the beta...your attitude. Can't wait to follow along.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!
ReplyDeleteYAY YAY YAY! I can't wait to see my own lineup of pee sticks! Congratulations, and I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for a happy, healthy pregnancy!
ReplyDeleteJust lil' ole me again. Blogstalking for updates.
ReplyDeleteThat's great news! Thanks for the comment on my blog. Hopefully we can have healthy happy pregnancy's together that result in healthy, happy babies!
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